I got my Christmas wish 2 years ago.

It's been a while... I've been busy but enjoying my new role - as a mother to Alejandro IV. Yes, I've got my ultimate wish two years ago... the best Christmas gift i ever had... and Christmas has never been the same... more merrier and happier.

my best Christmas Gift

My Christmas Wish (on its 8th year)

It's been 2 years with no updates here... Time flies so fast, as well as my body clock is ticking. Its so hard to dwell on things I don't have control. Whatever God's plan for me and hubby... I keep on praying that I will fully understand and embrace it all heartedly.

Christmas is already in the air... shoppers around malls, Christmas songs, cold breeze. I have mixed emotions, happiness and sadness. Wishes are for free, I can wish anything but I have only 1 wish... A baby! Its been 8 years that i've been wishing and praying. Lord please heal my womb, make it healthy that I may be able to carry a baby to full term and deliver him/her in this world. I love to become a mother... Lord, please deliver my gift soon (I wish its gonna be a Christmas gift)

In time for Aunt Flo

Just as the BFP news from a friend, Aunt flo came on time. Hay, how sad… Everybody’s happy around me, except me. Pregnancies on my FB list of friends this week, Lord I am so sad. Of course I am happy for them, babies are always a blessing. They are blessed with babies, why can’t be me? Lord, grant me this desire I have been praying and wishing for the longest six years of our marriage. Grant me a happy heart.

Had a chat with a friend who’s also on the same journey, she’s also trying to conceive. I felt better after chatting with her. Yes, miracles do happen. Who knows, it might be a wonderful Christmas present for us!

Keeping our faith high and never losing hope!

The Power of PRAYERS

Hi again, i still have no good news about pregnancy. But the good new is, i am not loosing my hope... and still counting my blessings. Number 1 is that i have a loving husband.

I wanted to share this prayer which i got from my comfort zone website, girltalk. I hope this could help us in our roller coaster journey of trying to conceive. Let's keep on believing, let's keep our faith high that soon we will hold our babies.

Desire To Conceive, Fulfillment Over Barrenness
Father, we thank You that children are the heritage of the Lord, and the fruit of the womb is His reward. Children are Your idea, Father; You brought up children, and family, and home. You instituted the family in the Garden of Eden. You ordered children; You commanded them when You said to Adam and Eve, "Be fruitful and multiply." You said that the barren womb is never satisfied. Lord, the Word declares that I am wonderfully and fearfully made by You; therefore, I'm perfect and able to conceive and have children. You said that I/my wife would be a fruitful vine by the side of our house and our children like olive plants around our table We are not ashamed but happy because our quiver is full of children (or arrows, as You call them).

Thank you, Father, that You designed and fashioned me/her, to have children, that in the Bible barrenness was the exception, not the rule, not Your will, not normal, something against Your plan and purpose. And in Your goodness and faithfulness every barren woman in the Bible who was godly and believed Your Word became pregnant; You opened her womb and bless her, and she gave birth to a precious baby just as I/she will. You make the barren woman to keep house and to be a joyful mother of children.

You said, Father, that because You are our God and we are Your people and have a covenant with You that You will love us and bless us and multiply us and bless the fruit of my/her womb and that neither male nor female among Your people would be barren.
Father, we are redeemed form the curse of the Law by Jesus, and being barren is under the curse of the Law; therefore, we will receive from Your grace and have children.

Father, no plague, no evil shall come nigh our dwelling. We are healed by the stripes of Jesus. Sickness of any kind is taken out of our midst. You said to ask anything of You in Jesus' name and it would be done; and that if two of us on either agree as touching anything it would be done. So we pray and we agree with You and Your Word, Father, that we will conceive and bring forth a healthy, precious baby to Your glory and honor. We pray all this according to Your Word and will. You said, This is the confidence that we have in You, that if we ask anything according to Your will, You hear us; and if You hear us, we know we have the petition we desire of You, We have it now. Thank, Father, in Jesus' name.



Now, talk to your body:

Bodies, we speak to you in Jesus' name; You will come in line and agreement with the Word of God. You will respond to His holy Word. You will function properly and perfectly, the way God intended you to. Every part, every organ of our reproductive system conforms to the Word and plan of God as we come together in pure, martial love. Body, conceive! Be pregnant. Cooperate with God's plan; perfect ovulation, release of perfect eggs from the ovaries, through the fallopian tubes, penetrated and impregnated, fertilized by healthy sperm. Good solid attachment to uterine wall and nourished and protected for nine months (40 weeks) unharmed and unhindered. Grow to a perfect baby - spirit, soul, and body. Your Word says, Father, that none shall cast their young, nor be barren amount Your people and the number of our days You will fulfill. This pregnancy will be fulfilled. We decree it in Jesus' name and receive God's best; we won't settle for anything less in Jesus' holy name. Thank You, Lord, that it is so and done to Your honor and Glory. Amen.

excited for God's surprises!

Happy New Year! I'm embracing 2011 with full of hopes... and waiting for the wonderful surprise from heaven above. I'm thankful for the past year 2010, it was a tough one, but we've made it with God's grace and guidance. Hubby and i are keeping our faith HIGH, that soon, our greatest dream to become parents will come our way. Can't wait to be called 'nanay' or 'mama', so excited to hold those tiny fingers, to hold her/him in my arms and to sing her/him lullaby. Been crying lately, i'm feeling sad. Naiinggit ako, bakit ang iba ang dali para sa kanila ang magkaroon ng anak... Pakiramdam ko, nakatulog kaming mag-asawa nung nagsabog ng biyaya ang Diyos. I know it isn't right to feel this way. I feel sorry for feeling this way and i am praying for His guidance, that i may understand what i am going through.

I have read one of of Bo Sanchez article and it really inspires me: "Let God surprise you".

My two-week-wait... again

It's been 9 days past ovulation (i assumed day 14 as my ovulation). I've been feelin' mixed emotions, 25% excitement and 75% fear. I'm quite excited (has always been) because it might be positive... it's good to have positive thoughts. I've been noticing a very light brownish discharge these past few days. I don't know if this would mean a positive sign. But as days past by, i felt the fear that it might be negative again. If these would be another failed two-week-wait, i pray that i'll have the courage and strength to face another day of hope again. That my faith will give me more understanding of what we are going through. Oh Lord, let it be my two-week-wait a worth waiting for (for more than 5 years of waiting) this time. I wish that i could announce to the world how happy and blessed i am. Oh, i've been waiting for that moment for so long... Lord, have mercy on us and may You grant our wish... a positive HPT, morning sickness and cravings, my baby bump, our little angel. I'm very much ready for sleepless nights just for taking care of our bundle of joy. Just thinking all of these makes me feel excited!

When will it be? I really need lots of patience...

When it will be? Kelan nga ba? Para na akong punching bag na bugbog na sa katanungang yan. I hope and wish i can answer it... pero kahit sa sarili ko hindi ko magawang sagutin. Nakakaiyak isipin, nakakaiyak sa tuwing kami ay kinukutya na para bang hindi kami normal na tao. Sana mainitindihan nila kung ano ang pinagdadaanan namin, sana maintindihan nila na mahal namin ang isa't isa at higit pa yon sa pwedeng matanggap na biyaya mula sa langit. Hindi nga ba sapat ang pagmamahal sa mag-asawa, kakulangan nga ba ang hindi pagkakaroon ng supling? Hindi ba't bonus lang yon sa mag-asawa. Hanggang ngayon, umaasa at nangangarap kaming mag-asawa na isang araw kami rin ay maging isang magulang... magulang na magbibigay ng pagmamahal at pag-aaruga sa isang anak. Iniisip ko pa lang na may tumatawag sa akin ng Nanay ay lubos ang kaligayahan ng aking puso. Kumakapit pa rin kami sa pag-asa, at sumasalampalataya sa Maykapal na isang araw ay mayayakap namin ang isang munting anghel sa aming buhay.