It was July 25, 2009 (also our patron Saint James feast day) when i found out that i was pregnant. We were so delightful, my heart is so happy. At first it was a faint line, we even tested so many times until lines were much visible. Hubby and I went to my OB July 27, but unfortunately my OB was not around.. I heard days after that her husband died. We decided to go to another OB, i know i really have to go for check up. When i was 5 weeks and 3 days pregnant (aug1, saturday), i went to another OB since my OB is not yet around but then there was no gestational sac found yet. She told me that it was yet too early kaya hindi pa makita. And on that day also, we found out that i also have a UTI and i have to undergo medications. She only gave me a very low dose of antibiotics because i am pregnant that time.
Sunday morning (august 2, 2009), i had a brown disharge. Kinabahan na ako that time, i had a strange feeling. Pinapalakas ko yong loob ko, i was telling myself na hindi naman sya blood. hubby told me not to worry and just have a bedrest nalang. Monday, i went to work at may brown discharges pa rin. On that night, after peeing i saw blood in the toilet bowl. I was crying... i knew then that my pregnancy didn't continue. Hubby was comforting me that time. But i know, my hubby was crying too it's just that he didn't want me seeing him crying. I was crying the whole night... nakatulugan ko na nga ang pag-iyak ko. The following morning, the bleeding stopped. Hindi din napuno ang sanitary pad na ginamit ko. So my hopes went high again... naisip ko na baka implantaion bleeding lang un. I even asked hubby to buy another PT. I tested again and still, there was a faint line (which means positve pa rin). so i told myself na buntis pa rin ako. I didn't go to work that day so i can have bedrest. August 5, hubby and i went back to my OB. I had TVS, and she told me that i had a weak pregnancy. She told me that i really got pregnant but it's just that it didn't continue for some reasons: maaring weak daw ang egg ko, or weak ang sperm ni hubby or weak ang combination of both sperm and egg; another reason might be chemical pregnancy.
Our emotions were like a roller coaster. Sad to say that my pregnancy didn't continue. It's so sad, until now while typing my story... i can't help but cry. But i have to move on... hubby was telling me that we will try gain. Practice makes perfect sabi nga.
The 2 weeks i had knowing that i am pregnant was really a happy feeling... sobrang saya ng pakiramdam. I will always treasure that moments and sana sa susunod, i will have a safe and healthy full term pregnancy. I'm feelin' better now... yet still coping. There are times na nalulungkot pa rin ako, pero sa tuwing makikita ko kung gaano ka-supportive at maalaga si hubby nawawala lahat ng lungkot ko.To all moms-to-be, enjoy each moment being pregnant and take care always! And for the wanna-be-moms that are waiting like me... let's keep our faith high, sooner darating din time para sa atin.
